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5/18/24

Today started rough. We are sleeping with the windows open and my allergies are going crazy. Sleeping with the window open outweighs dealing with the headaches and congestion. But I had to wait until the allergy pill kicked in before I could be productive. Avery moved into her town home. We rolled into Brockport a half hour early so she could get her town house assignment. She stood in line while we waited patiently. I was more patient than Paul. The room was moist and I started to smell the oily skin of people and had to walk outside. I have a super nose and the smells are sometimes overwhelming. Avery got her assignment and we began to move her in. It is pretty neat. When you walk in, there is a kitchen and living-room that open to one another. There is a breakfast bar with 4 stool chairs, a couch, a chair or two and then a kitchen table with 6 chairs. If you walked straight, it would lead you to two separate bedrooms set up for one person, with a full bathroom. If in the living room
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5/17/24

 I was thinking this morning about all the things I was thankful for. I really enjoyed having my windows open and feeling the cool breeze coming in to air out the winter funk. I am thankful the excited whisper “Mom come here….look at the blue jay.” Just having an excited reaction to a shared interest. This afternoon Ethan and I walked around the yard and used my bird app to identify the different calls. Silly, but I liked it. We did have a wood pecker near by, but I think it left because I haven’t heard the jack hammering of his beak the last day or two. How do their brains survive? It is nice to have Avery home. She made lunch today, sausage tortellini with meatballs and a tomato basil sauce.  It was pretty yummy. I played catch up today. I am getting ready for next week. I tried to be as kind to myself as possible. I work my night shift on Sunday, Monday will be me recovering from the lack of sleep. Tuesday we meet with a hematologist tor Ethan. Wednesday is labs, Thursday is Ethan’s

5/16/24

 I am glad tomorrow is Friday. This week has been long. Today I had one of my leadership meetings. The topic was “difficult discussions” it was quite useful with a non-accusatory approach to talking about things that suck. It has been one of the most useful things we have learned yet. I am thankful that we moved Avery home today. She will be here until Saturday. Then she moves back into the dorms to start her summer research project. Yup! Stupid they didn’t let her stay. We moved her back after work this evening and it was a family affair.  Even her friend was there helping too. When we got home, Avery and I worked on grooming the rabbit as he had a fecal catastrophic event and needed to be shaved. His ding dong (that is a scientific word) glands were crusty and needed a good cleaning as well. He is a messy boy.  Then Paul came in and told me that there was a chipmunk that fell out of the tree and broke its back and was flailing around in the back yard. I wish I hadn’t known. I was con

5/15/24

 Avery called me last night. This is finals week for her. She gets the swirly twirly’s in her stomach and has some pretty bullying self talk. Today was her physics 2 final. I asked her what the worst thing was that could happen. “I do really bad, everyone hates me, and I start bleeding from my eyeballs.”  Boy, I hate when that happens. I started poking holes in her anxieties/fears. We used humor to laugh at the fear. “I have heard that anxiety/fear causes excessive bleeding through the eyeballs…I hope you don’t have a clotting disorder” - I said. “Or else….sure death!” I told her about a conversation I had with her Aunt Julie SEVERAL summers ago. She had read something or listened to a podcast that suggested personifying fear into a person that is trying to control you. You should talk to your fear tell your fear what you think of it. I remember during that conversation laughing at how ridiculous this was. We joked about what we would say to fear. However, I also shared with Avery how

5/14/24

 This is the quote I read today. “The worst I ever wish on people is that they meet themselves as someone else.” I don’t generally wish ill on anyone…except maybe pedophiles, elder abusers and animal abusers. This quote does capture how I feel about people though.  For the most part, I wouldn’t mind running into someone that acted like me. I mean I have my days when I annoy myself or am crotchety and I wouldn’t want to meet that person acting like me on those days.  I think back to certain instances in my life where I may not have acted my best self. Ewww…would I want to run into that version of myself? No way.  Are there rules to this quote? What if your poor actions are in response to someone being a dumbass, or rude, or worse? There has to be exceptions right? Either way, the message is solid. It’s kind of like saying “Have the day you deserve.”  My camel bite is healing nicely. It looks like a watercolor gone wrong with its swirls of purple-y and yellow.  It looks so cool!

5/13/24

Back to the grind! Boo! I actually feel quite refreshed after a week off. I was ready to tackle today. I did a little bit of work while on vacation to make sure I was not overwhelmed today. It worked and I was thankful I chose to do that. It was a beautiful day out when it wasn’t pouring rain. ☔️  I helped Ethan complete the I9 form for his apprenticeship. I had to be the “document verifier” to make sure he is a real citizen. Avery needed help with getting her direct deposit form for her research job this summer. She was able to obtain everything remotely. I set up an appointment for next week to have my new glasses fitted.  Tomorrow we meet with the NYC nephrologist for a follow up. They want to make sure that everything is going well with the new doctors. Ethan’s doctor is so thoughtful and caring towards him, even when he is unlikable.  Ethan will need his blood drawn again soon. We will see how things look on his bloodwork. One day at a time.

5/12/24

 Mother’s Day should be extended for a WEEK! I would lobby for that. I don’t lobby for anything, but I would lobby for that! Today was spent cleaning and unpacking. Ethan had the house in great shape when we got back. He has made such a huge improvement since our last trip! The dogs needed their baths, nail trims and beds changed. We got that done, no problem. Next on the list, remove the camper cover, dust it off and get the winter smell out of it. Freshen the linens, towels, and rugs. Wipe out all the drawers and surfaces. Go through all the things, add all the medications and bandages so that “just in case” something happens, we are prepared. I brought up my paints and paint brushes from storage in the basement, for some epic rock painting. I have enough paints for the next 10 summers. My Mom was wonderful enough to host Mother’s Day even though it was physically taxing for her. We all stepped in to help. She made such a yummy meal! It was great to see Nana and Papa too! What a nice